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Monday, March 16, 2009,Monday, March 16, 2009

hello everyone, i now using a emo,unstable,mixed feeling to write this post de...Ever since o lvl, everything change in a blink of eyes! Ppl do say tat money does change ppl but for teenagers is holidays do change ppl..haha.

Ever since holidays start, friends are drifting me away except for 2 tat is stone(boon wee) and birdie(kenneth)..The rest is like 时冷时热, i dun like this feeling at all! If i will to choose, i wan to stay at the year of sec 3 to 5! Because tat is the moment i really enjoy myself,all my classmate,friends work together for N lvl and o lvl,go tuition togther and all the quarrel tat we have..Haha thought i know is hurt whn we quarrel but at least it help us to improve our friendship!..Now whn i emo,sad or even happy, no one is there for me to share my feeling to, the feeling is like i been throw into a dark room where no one is except me! I know ken and boon wee always make me laugh whn we three go out together but is like nt fair to u two because u two are always the one instead of other standing by my side to share my feelings to!

One more things is that i hate my family members except my grandma! I hate them to the extend tat i could rip them apart! Because they doesn't seem to care abt me! Whn i get into the course, they nvr even ask whether is this course tat i wan to get in to or ask me am i happy to get into this course or wat! All the do is to care abt my future jobs scope! I nt happy at all because in their eyes there no place where i can stand! For example this few days, they nvr ask whether have i prepare for the course or wat, they just can't stop nagging tat why at first why i get into this course where the future jobs is nt good! I mean like this is my choice wat, now due to my color deficiency design course can accept, i already very happy le, wat can i expect? All day long, they ask, why at the first place u dun wan go business sch or watever shit! I dun like business course, wat for i go and study? i must well study something which i liked it and have confidence in?

Whnever i go to my guardian's house, i have the urge to stay there forever because at there, i dun feel stress at all but fun and laughter! Even if i having stress, the kids over there also will make me laugh and tat goes all my stress..But whn i reach home is different! At home i can sense all the unlimited STRESS　ｔａｔ　ｉ　ｈａｎｄｌｉｎｇ　ｗｉth! At home, all my dad do is to ask me do house chores at others stuff! Why can't my sis do it leh? Thn my sis every time do a little bit only, complain to my dad tat she did alot of stuff! I just rest for one, two days also cannot meh? In the end, i have to do it by myself, is just so unfair and my dad is DAMN BIASED! Whn i sick, he didn't care abt me by asking how am i! Thn whn my sis fall sick, he will called her everyday just to ask, have to taken medicine or wat! Seldom i damn sad la, because whn i fall sick, my family members nvr show concern abt me but to scold me for nt taking good care of my ownself! ROAR!

Thn last week or so, justin talk to me again..haha XD. I told this to my sis and she ask me why dun wan ask him for reason why he did tat to me! But i told her, is no point lor because if i asked, it will only ruin our friendship again instead of getting the truth! haha, now he willing to talk to me and be my friend, i am glad already...haha XD. Sat went to collect my phone after the Amksian family day, hehe i went home and bath before going to J8 for phone collecting, i send my phone for service..Boon and ken pei me go collect my phone, haha thks for wat u two done, without u two big jokers, i think my smile and laughter will be gone..The two of them are a great friends to be with because they add up = CLOWN!haha XD we went out from 4+ to 9! In this 4hrs plus, i really enjoy myself because they bring back my laughter and smile! haha thks buddy :D