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Sunday, August 31, 2008,Sunday, August 31, 2008

Haiz...i duno wat can i do

ARgh..I gt three things in mind which i duno wat can i do..Can anyone teach me??

First - I have this 17 yrs friend which i often talk to...Thn one day, i see his msn nick is damn sad which nvr ever happened before de...So i called him n sad him wat happened...I have nt even finish wat i wan to say..He just asked me shut up..Thn i say dun like this la..We been friend for 17 years le thn now see u so unhappy n i try to ask wat happen, see i can help or not..Thn he started shouted at me with all the vulgar..Thn i was getting pissed off, i scold back lor...Thn in the end, he say something which make me damn sad...The thing tat he say is:" i think 17 years of friendship is really too long le, is time we ended this relationship..." Whn i heard this sentence, my heart is like from 100 floor dropped all the way to 1 floor...Because i hardly can have this kind of friend yet suddenly he just say one sentence n tat goes our friendship...This week is the third week, i have nt been talking to him....I trying to say sry to him but in my heart i keep thinking tat this also nt my fault, also nt i started to quarral with him de, he the one hu started it so he shl be the one say sry to me wat...Whn i thinking of this, my tears fall because i can't believe tat our 17 years of relationship can withstand this small quarral...

Second - Also abt friend...I have this friend hu i regard as my close friend though we only know each other recently...haha actually both of us came from the same primary sch...Yeah!...Thn whenever i unhappy, he will lent me his ear n i will tell him story..He nvr think is annoying n still comfort me..Thn i feel happy because he know how to cheer ppl up.But recently i think is because of exam ba..Sms him, nvr reply..Online talk to him, nvr reply, the most funny thing is he nvr reply still nvm but awhile later he went offline without say anything...Win le lor..haiz..duno wat to do leh..I think he start find me very annoying le ba tat y he tryign to avoid me..But during tuition i also trying to avoid him but cannot, still have to see him...Thn today during lesson, i pretend he nt in the class because i personally think tat he also find me annoying tat y dun wan talk to me n wan to avoid me so i will do the same in order nt to make things difficult for him n me...If can i really wan u to be my close friend because i really can't afford to lose anything close friend anymore..I cannot take the pressure anymore!!!I really very tired for waiting friends to reply n as well as being dao by friend...I ALWAYS PUT FRIENDS AS MY FIRST PRIORITY!!!

Third - I like a person...The person is so cute lor...The way the person smile in a silly way..haha so nice..But I think is because of exam thn the person also hardly talk to me le..Online talk dun wan reply..Because the person only can online on during weekend...Haiz..see the person during tuition, the more i see the person the more i feeling sad sia...haha..Hopefully after O can talk to the person again...

Anyone can help me solve this two problems??Ignored the last one..Last one i can settle myself..Everytime come to fri - sun, I will feel emo because it make me remind of the unhappy things.. ='(

Tuesday, August 05, 2008,Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Wat r friends?

Arhh...I duno should hate u guys or not...Let name Guy A,B,C,G n Gal D,E,F...Here goes the story:
Guy A,B,G n F, i knew them for 5 years, Guy C n Gal D,E, i knew them for 3 yrs....

Guy A, I sometime really duno am i a friend of him or not..the way he treat me n the way he treat others is so diff la..He something no one to talk to, he will call me even though it is midnite..Thn the next day, go sch, i wan to talk to him, thn the attitude he show me is not like friends lor, is more like a enemy..Because he can treat others very nice but to me is like SHIT!..I really duno am i still a friend of him or nt, whn he need me, he called me thn whn he dun wan me, he cast me away..Is this wat friend for?

Guy B: Haiz, duno wat he wan lor..Whn u see him, he look very cheerful n no worries de..But whn u nt with him, he can have millions of trouble or things tat will make him sad..Thn whn i trying to cheer him up, he keep saying tat wat he say is true n blah blah...But to u know something? U r one of my close friends but i seldom see because as long as he/she is your friend n whn they r feeling down, u will try lots of matter just to do cheer them up but whn comes to u, ppl cheer u up, you keep saying all those discourage words abt yourself...Am i not your friend? Why u having trouble, why u can't u just come n find me n talk?..Sometime i really thinking am i your friend or not, y whn something happened to u, i always the last one to know..Haiz..

Guy C: U arh..Haiz, duno wat to say..Sometime ask u study with some of us, u dun wan..This year 'O' lvl le leh, can't u be a bit serious? Ok la, i know now u abit serious but whn u gt anything u duno, u also can try to ask me mah, nt as if i will ask u go away? Unless u pissed me off lor..Thn sometime ppl play with u, u take it seriously thn whn u play with ppl, ppl treat it seriously, u dun like..Thn wat u wan ppl to do? Sometime, i know u maybe facing some difficulties but u must always remember, u have bunch of close friends beside u hu u can asked..Ask u open your mouth as if will ripe off your bone like this...Thn sometime ppl called your nickname, u dun like it but whn u called ppl nickname, u gt think whether the person like it or not?Thn whn the person get pissed off, u think sry will ok le meh?The person will get pissed off is because, u as his/her close friend, all the more, u shl not say all those things to him/her but u just say it, tat y ppl will get pissed off..

Gal D: U used to be very cheerful de, i still remember last time whn we go out together, u will always bring laughter for us n let us have a happy n joyful day..But duno y, to me u suddenly become nt as cheerful as last time, get emo n pissed off easily, like to say 'eff-off'..Last time, u dun say all those stuff, wat has happen to u? I know i am already nt your friend already but no matter wat, u r always my close n happy friend tat i had in my secondary sch life...Do u still remember wat u told me? I own u life time friendship...Last time, whn we will in sec 3/4, u used to called me in the night n tell me all your troubles or even asked me for help..I really missed those days whereby u every nite called or i called u thn we chit-chat for 1hr plus...Haiz, i will wan the old self of you...I hope, i can still be one of your close friend again..Maybe is because of 'O' lvl tat y, we nt tat close as last time but if can, after 'O' lvl, can we still like last time like this? Go out together n chit-chat together?

Gal E: Hey! u hor, haiz..The person hu i like to talk to nowadays...haha..Erm, to me, over the past few year, u have grow mature alots, but as u grow mature, i can see the changes in you too...I still remember whn we will in sec 3, I always go to your house n play audition, cook noodles..Thn every sat or sun, we always go out together n go arcade play together..Haha those times, is really very fun, we have so many laughter with tat group of ppl...I know i sometime will quarrel with u, i am really sry abt it, because i having too much stress, i duno how to de-stress thn sometime just show attitude on u as a form of de-stress..I know is wrong but sometime i just can't seem to control myself..Last time cause to drop so many tears all because i quarrel with u, i really very sry abt it...

Gal F: Hey yo!, haiz, u know u another joker in the clique...Always like to say one sentence in msn: 'hohoho!', haha tat wat u always say in msn or blog..U r one of those hu is very 讲义气 one...Do u know y i will name u as 'F'? The reason is because u r a funny,funky type of person...Whn u know a friends who is in trouble, u will try all the best to care abt tat person regardless hu is tat person as long as is your friend can liao...Tat the reason y most of us like abt you..Thn other thn me, u r another person hu like to emo over something one...haha we gt same alike sia...Thn if u dislike someone or wat, u will try all the best to avoid tat person..Your motto is:' If tat place gt the person hu i dislike, i will nt appear at tat place until tat person is gone'...Haha the motto is interesting rite?...Recently i have encounter some families problems, she the only one hu send mail to convey her message instead of using sms or in msn...Tat is something i think only she will do it..In the future, if u see someone sending u encourage words through mail, u no need guess also know, the person is hu le...haha XD...Another point of her is tat whn she organize something n inviting some ppl n one of them dun wan to go, she will keep asking her to go unless u have a valid reason...Now i duno whether will she still do all these stuff or nt because if i will her, i will do all these stuff anymore, it is just too tired le lor...Haiz, among all my friends, she is the one n only interesting friend i have...haha XD

Guy G: U this idiot joker!!!!! Haha really leh, sometime life without you is like meaningless lor..U have a very very joker face, no matter hu, as long as u r laughing, the ppl beside u will also laugh( provided the ppl beside u, know hu u r if not others will think u r a mad man) haha XD....Do u know something abt yourself? Is tat whn u laugh, u look like chimpanzee..hahah XD..Thn u will know the person character if interact with tat person, tat is one of your gd point...U tend to play lots of games n u neglect your studies...Oi ah uncle, in two months time, we r taking major exam le leh, still play CnC! Time to wake up lor...Actually for guy G, i really duno wat to write because he is one of my friends hu will make me laugh whenever i with him...Haiz, so sry man, maybe end of the year i gt more things to write abt u ba...haha

I know i also changing but i think is really because of studies ba tat y 8 of us will change..But i really hoped tat, after 'O' lvl, we can go back to last time where we have fun all day long n no stress, go aracde whenever we go out, no quarrel among us, watch movie together, have laughter n joys whenever we go out.. Can we do tat? I really wan tat to happened again n let me n others believe tat in this world, ever lasting friendship really exist in this world, can we do it?

I think the 7 of you, if u all gt come to my blog, u will know hu u r? I does nt mean tat i am perfect, i know i at times, I always show attitude for u guys but in this post, all i wan to say is tat, no matter wat, i just wan to your close friend hu u can relay on..May I?

This is just part 1 only, as for part 2, i will write it at the end of the year...Hopefully i can end the story with a very very nice ending...Hehehe, hey those hu r my friends n come my blog n read de,after u read, dun ever get jealous ok? Because i have too many friends, i can't mention them one by one rite? I only highlight those i think is really important in my life de, actually i gt four person hu i wan write abt but in the story i just wan to say abt them so i will leave it till next time...The four person hu i wan to write abt is Eunice, cai feng, jia qing n justin...Sry tat now i nvr write abt u...Next time no matter wat, i will read abt u all de...Hehe...Sry!